Shh! Its A Secret

So I recently had an ex boyfriend come back and confess he had actually fallen in love with me, this came approximately 10 years after our "relationship"ended, I was kind of angry about this, and then I became perplexed, see I was completely in love with this guy, although I did feel our relationship was doomed from the get go, he was considerably younger then me, and it took a lot of convincing for me to go on a date with him, and after a year of a tumultuous relationship, we both went our separate ways, my feelings for him still remain, although now I am in a different place, I have a wonderful man that I am engaged to, and we have a beautiful litle girl, he moved across the united states, to be closer to his family, attend college, and live an uncomplicated life, (he had some issues around here). I became angry about this, because my feelings for him still remained although they were pressed deep in the recesses of my mind, I also knew it was going to happen, I called him

So I broke down after seeing a YouTube video on the "miracle benefits" of this oil, it's suppose to have a lot of skin and hair care benefits, claims to regrow hair, improve elasticity of your skin etc etc etc, so after I saw a woman use it on her eyelashes and claimed they grew thicker and longer I had to try it, I have short thin lashes, I've had the bottle for a week and have used it twice, see that is my main problem, I have all these grandiose ideas on starting a beauty routine or diet, and will be extremely motivated about it and it lasts an hour, I have yet to find the drive to stick with something more than 24 hours, I have never had patience for anything if it's not immediate I am instantly discouraged, please tell me I'm not the only one? So my search is on to find motivation, I am trying to promise myself that I will lose 10lbs and stick with a daily beauty routine, I will keep everyone updated on my progress, and if anyone has tips and tricks pleas